heavy heart for no reason tonight. started digging into it with my new therapist today (which was mostly just me blathering). we get along well. we both laughed at the impossibility of getting more sleep. I’m hoping for good things with him.

still, tonight, I’m feeling the worst mixture of sad, tired, and anxious.

going to go to bed and hope for the best. tomorrow should maybe be better? who knows? all I know is, I’m going to sleep to the sounds of Bon Iver and will have to resist crying. this album already means too much to me.

…this is one of those nights it’s probably good I can’t smoke in my room.